Last Date with 2008
All is quiet in my house at 6am on the last day of the year. I shouldn’t be up this early, but out of habit, I am. I’m sort of excited to get this day behind me.
There are two times of year that never fail to get a rise of sentimentality and reflection out of me: the early fall season and the last day of the year. Every fall as the leaves drop, I examine my life and my choices in general. I look for areas to improve and analyze where I am and how I got there. I think about people who are no longer in my life. I obsess about the future. As for the last day of the year, these thoughts are much more pinpointed to the last 12 months and the next 6 months. Even in this blog, I usually write an end of year summary, describing line by line, what happened or what I accomplished. It’s a fun and usually therapeutic exercise. I’m big on goal-setting, so it also helps me take a look at how to organize my priorities and devise plans for the coming year. There, now you know another wonderfully boring thing about me that you didn’t know yesterday. Yay you.
Two things occurred to me yesterday that were slightly amusing and frightening all at once. One, time is speeding by. I cannot believe that come this April, my blog will have been up for 5 years. Where did 5 years go? Okay, so I can read the blog and figure that out…but why did it go so fast? For the girl who wanted everything, it’s freaking me out. I need more time to travel all around the world and finish school and finish my master bathroom remodel and…take more leaps forward in my career and have a kid and…yeah. Okay, so the second thing: the more snow we get, the slower the days go. Is this contrary to what I just barfed all over this post? Sure! Welcome to my brain. Really though, the snow is making me feel like the days stand still. All this precious time I was whining about? It drags on as the snow piles up and I’m increasingly more frustrated that I can’t hang out in my backyard or go eat on a restaurant patio. So, it’s like I’m waiting for the time to get behind me…what a paradox.
I’m neurotic, yes. On that note, one of my goals for 2008 was to find a handful of things that bring my stress levels down. This might sound weird (in this post, it’s on par), but I’ve discovered that listening to birds singing early in the morning takes some stress off my head. In the winter, I miss it terribly. However…for some reason, right now, outside my window, there is a loudly chirping bird. I must have some good karma coming my way today.